Blogging from ny cellphone since my Internet at home dont work atm.
I Hate myself, seriously, what the fuck is wrong with me???
I push away People around me that I love. I always want to be alone and even I Dont know why.
I am NOT fucking normal. People are out there, swimming, having a bbq or just being social with each other.
Yet here I am, wining about it and push away the Ones I love and I really dont understand why, which gives me actually no right to complain and yet I am doing it.
So filled with different emotions. I will not accomplish anything here in life. I am fucked. Worst part is I am making it all by myself.
I dont have any energy to pull myself up. I am so broken in so many ways that even I dont understand. I am a horrible person and I WILL end up alone.
I am nothing and I will not accomplish anything..