Today I got a visit from my grandma. I haven't seen her for ages and it felt soo good to see her, I swear, I love that women to death. My grandma is my everything and I feel kind of bad for not keeping in touch with her or the rest of my relatives.. I don't know why, I never really grew up with them (this is my mother's side of the family). I only grew up with my dad's side of relatives, only have a few here from his side and after he passed away I never kept in touch with them. Only under a short notice after my father's death but not so much after that.
Family really does mean everything, I kind of realized it now, what if something would happen to me one sad day and I needed them but since I never been with them (now I am talking about my mother's side) they wouldn't really care or be there for me since I never talk to them..?
I don't know honestly. They never done me any harm, but the thing is they kind of feel like strangers to me, they talk in a language I don't understand (that is the most sad part for me) and they all know each other and seems to have a great bond but I am not since I never been there... So I don't know, I have mixed up emotions about all of this, but in the end of the day, they are still my family and I am thinking about getting in touch with them again. I have heard that they have been talking about me and is quite upset why I never pay them a visit or why I am not in touch with my cousins.
The reason for that is because I have always been the different person in my family, kind of like a black sheep but not really at the same time. We are just not on the same level on things, at all.. But that has to change I guess, I really want them in my life and I feel sad when I am typing this right now because I do love them, even if I don't know them to well.. I even had the chance to bond with everyone and get involved with the family but I choose not do to that for various of reasons. Now those reasons doesn't seem legit anymore. Does anyone relatate to what I am feeling or is it just me ? :S
ANYWAYS, enough of the wall of text, lol. I finally got my package that I've been waiting for and I wanted to show you sweethearts what I've bought. I took some pictures of my products and will do a makeup with them in the near future, so stay tuned for that.
ALSO, I have decided on what I am going to be for Halloween, I will give you a hint. I got the costume now and on my ask.fm I've got a question from someone who was wondering when is the pictures of the outfit is coming up because I uploaded a sneakpeak picture on my facebook and the answer is - SOON. It will be up at the end this week.
|All of the stuff from my latest ELF order that has arrived.|
|2 studio powder brushes|
|2 matte eyeshadows, also from the studio line in "brick" and "chestnut".|
|1 pigmented eyeshadow, studio line, in the shade "golden goddess".|
|1 baked blush, studio line, in "passion pink"|
|1 lip exfoliator|
|1 facial shimmer in the shade "spotlight", sorry for my not so flattering nails. Which reminds me of I have to fix them very soon!!!|
|1 lipliner in the shade "bark"|
sneakpeak of my Halloween costume, can you guess who I am gonna be? ;)
Btw, I saw that I have got many new readers, especially from USA and Israel. Welcome to my blog, I find this very amusing and intresting at the same time that so many of you have find yourself to my blog. If you have any questions about anything, leave them in the comment section or ask me something on my blogrespons (you can find it in the sidebar) or just go with my ask.fm. Eitherway I respond as quicky as I can to you question or your thoughts. :*
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