Saturday, October 17, 2015

Tons of Halloween Looks / ideas / Inspiration (also perfect for last minute!)

Hi sweethearts <3 

Sitting here in my bed with my Ben & Jerry's and I though to myself why not blog a little bit since it has been a while? I am so pumped up for Halloween at the same time I am not and let me tell you why. I guess as many of you know, I LOVE Halloween, it is the time of the year you can wear whatever the hell you want and no one would bat their lashes against you and it is also the perfect time of the year to get super creative. Like decorating, carving out pumpkins, giving kids candy when the ring the doorbell for trick / treat and being dressed up, everything is spooky and of course last but not least, TIM BURTON MOVIES, OMG !! <3

It is just something so evil and mysterious in the air whenever it is Halloween and I really get in to the holiday spirit, I get all giddy just by thinking about it, hihi. Yeah, as you can tell, I am quite excited. <3 

I have  been thinking about what I want to dress up for this year, that is what makes me sort of anxious about Halloween because I got so many ideas but I never have the entire look pulled together when I am coming up with an idea, only like bits of it and I cannot really afford it right now to go full on with a certain look... That is what sucks the most, I have that mentality that I either go big or go home, idk why but that is just me... I have been thinking about making some tutorials on Youtube for you but I don't know how long it will take to make them since recording, editing etc takes many hours to do and I don't usually have the time to just take my camera and to start doing all of that... As I said, I am not promising anything but I will try to do it, at least 1 tutorial. I have been thinking about dressing out as an evil clown, sugar skull, vampire, cat, fairy or doll... I am not quite sure yet, as I said, I am still thinking about it. I have been dressed previously as Harley Quinn, vampire, mouse and lion so I will not be going for those looks again this year, well maybe only Harley Quinn but that is because I am going to comic con / gamex here in Stockholm and I am going to cosplay her since I got her entire outfit all set-up but I will not be Harley this year since I have been her on Halloween 2 years ago. I think I might go for a sexy cat or even a clown  this year since I am not too keen on spending tons of money this year on a Halloween look.

Here is some inspiration and for you to get you in to the spirit and some ideas if you want to go for something this year  - 

Jack O'lanterns / pumpkins nailart design, also very easy to do and a little something if you dont want to dress up / have a costume on this is a great option .

Easy deer makeup

Jack Skellington from Nightmare Before Christmas
Evil clown

Comic Book character

Easy, cute and chic Clown, LOVE LOVE LOVE, might do something like this... I get so inspired <3

Queen Of Hearts

This is a great look if you want something not so in your face but still something of an extra touch. I would pair this look up with pink lips and blush to make it look more doll like bur each to their own :* 

A step by step on skull face look
Also a good step by step if you wanna do a skull or some sort of look that includes a mouth like this 
Broken porcelain doll

Sugar skull

Sultry Vampire
Wicked AF Harley Quinn 

 Soure : Pinterest, Tumblr.

That was it babes. I hope this gave you some ideas, obviously you can take any of these looks and modify them to your own liking, just play around and have fun. I hope you found this somewhat helpful, I have had a lot of questions from people on what they should be for Halloween so I thought I might as well do a full blogpost about it instead. Happy Halloween sweethearts :* <3 

Saturday, October 3, 2015

What A Crazy Week

Hi sweethearts <3 

Thought about writing here since I got so many people worried about my previous blogposts, sorry to disappoint you haters, but I am very much alive, lol. This week has been SOOO crazy emotionally, not gonna lie, I still do not feel fully recovered and I am still kind of traumatized since my latest blogpost. That was seriously a mad breaking point for me, I literally hit the wall mentally. I have been under a lot of pressure lately and the thing is with me I always let it build up and build up and build up and then without any notice, BOOM, I turn in to an emotional wreck, all the feelings that I kept bottled up inside for such a long time is coming out all at once! It was just too much to handle, I am still dealing with all the emotions cause they've been pouring out from time to time ever since. I guess I need to get it out of my system, it sucks to feel this way but I think it will be very much needed. See it as a big cleanse of all the negativity that has been eating up inside of me for such a  long time  is getting out, slowly but steady. When that is done I can bounce back again to myself because of right now, I don't really feel like myself. Not fully at least. I am gonna get there though, just need to give it some time. Also, my mum comes home tomorrow, WOW, after 2 months of being gone, wohoo......... (It will equal tons of stress and pressure, yaayy, how fun, just what I needed right now). 

Anyways, I have been pampering myself up, bleaching my hair , or at least the outgrown part, grooming myself, fixing my brows, I've put on some self-tanner so now I look like a bronzed goddess with my super pale hair, also I fixed my nails. You know just the details but the details matter though because the detalis makes the entire picture comes together imo. Also, yesterday I was at my bf's place, yeah... It went fine , thought it would go a lot worse since when I was so messed up I talked to him over the phone the night before and let me just say - things shouldn't have been said at that time and I was kind of  mean.... So I guess I just had to suit myself and face the consequences. At the same time though I didn't mean any of the things I said because at that point I was so frantic and suicidal so yeah... Hard to think straight or even give a fuck about anything other than yourself so I do not feel sorry about that, buuut I do feel sorry for certain things I said. Everything is solved now, more or less, I feel kind of relieved of that problem being out of my world so I can focus on dealing with other sorts of issues/  pressure that I have going on. It is a lot, so it is hard to keep up with your emotions at the same time as I am handling all this pressure but I am gonna do my best to keep things together, at least try my very best.

BTW - I am thinking about doing a blogpost about depression, anxiety and panic, trying to explain for those who do not really understand it in the best way that I can and something that you can do when you are feeling low or anxiety/panic is triggering you and what you can do to kind of calm down. I think it would be good, especially from someone (like myself) is suffering from it and that you can actually relate and know that if the tricks work for me I am pretty sure they will work on you as well. It is just things that I have learned during the years and has helped me a lot , also something to inspire you when you need it the most. I think about dividing it into 3 pieces, 1 - What you need to know about depression, anxiety and panic. 2. How to deal with depression, anxiety and panic (tips / tricks) 3. motivation for those who suffer from these conditions. What do you think, do you want me to do these ? Let me know if that is something y'all would be interested in because I could definitely do that for you lovelies. <3 

Some pictures I took a while back ago but never posted them, bare face, natural hair and apparently, tits half way out , enjoy  -