Wednesday, May 25, 2016

Optimism

Hi sweethearts <3 

I just wanted to check in here, thought it was about time lol. I don't honestly know what to write about today, I snapped a few pictures with my camera during Saturday since I was going out and I looked BOMB AF and was totally feelin' myself so I thought why not? Besides, it was AGES ago since I used my camera. Lately all my pictures have been taken with my cellphone, the camera in my cellphone is great tbh but nothing can make a picture look as good as an good advanced system / compact  camera can. The only reason why I have barely been using it it is because it does not have a flip screen so I am always guessing myself forward when I take selfies. I was pro at it before , noticed I am a little bit rusty nowadays with it but hopefully I will start to use it more again. I only like to use it when I am fixed and have natural sunlight, that is when I find the pictures becomes its best. That is also one of the reasons I so rarely use it.

Sooo what's been happening in my life lately? - Well, I quit the program at the working center where I live. If you have been following me for a while you will probably know the reasons but if you don't then I will say it is because my work coach is just a waste of time and energy, same goes for the others that is working at the working center here where I live. I know that they don't actually help you find work, I know that is an responsibility you have to take yourself but they were suppose to help me find practice so I could gain some work experience and from that I could start to work because 95% of the work today requires that you have some form of working experience, including the most "basic jobs" you still need to have it. For being in the program for over 2 years now they have helped me get a practice that lasted 1 week... Like seriously no fucking joke, 2 years in the program - 1 week of practice. They earn money of having you going on their meetings, if they honestly wanted everyone to have work they would be unemployed themselves so they keep on making empty promises over and over again.. So one day I said fuck it , doesn't matter or change anything if I go the program or not. I still remain unemployed with or without their help so I might as well get rid of them and stop wasting my time and do something else and better with it.

Besides that I feel pretty good, I have starting to draw / do art again. Haven't done it in years because of various reasons. If you didn't know art was a passion of mine but it got ripped and killed away from me basically for a very long time and then all of a sudden the need to draw came back and it was here to stay. I remembered how good it felt and I missed it like crazy so I went and bought some new art gear again. I am in no way pro, I just do some work for myself but one day I might be able to post my shit up when I feel confident enough. Also, on another note, my Star Wars obsession is out of hand.. Like completely, I buy everything Kylo Ren when I see it and to say I have a crush on the man is an understatement of the year... hehehe, I need help.. 

The situation at home is somewhat weird. My older sister (half sister) moved back home with her daughter that is 3 years old.. My mum went to Turkey and gonna be there for 4 months, she seriously couldn't leave a more worse timing than this. My other older sister is pregnant with her other child so yeah, mother leaving right now is not good for shit. All the responsibility hangs on my shoulders, my older sister (the one that lives with me right now), I swear to god she is a teenager still in her head, I have to play mother to everything and everyone here, cleaning after them, doing the dishes, being in charge of the budget and make sure that everything goes around. Also, trying to keep things tidy here is impossible, I feel like a ghetto version of Cinderella you guys :((  the frustration is REAL. My summer is more or less ruined, yay. Well, I made a deal with her and she seems to be keeping her end of her bargain (much to my surprise) so that's good, I have some plans, big plans actually. I will not share them here though until it is time, what do you think it can be?  ;) ;) 


The things that goes great in my life is my connection to my friends and new people I have met, it has gone really good on that front. My friends are awesome, I love everyone of them, it has been a time since my last update that I wanted to strangle some but it is ok now. Guess they went through a lot of shit themselves but we managed, together, as always. I am happy that SOMETHING here in life is going as it should lol. Trying to be optimistic as much as possible, I finally have a cause that I fight for and I shall not give up. #warriorinmymind









Love you all my babes and take care, talk to you next time :* <3

Sunday, April 17, 2016

Batman V Superman : Dawn Of Justice Review! (Spoiler Free)

Hi sweethearts <3 

I've wrote a status on my facebook like a few days after I saw the movie at IMAX in 3D if you wanted to get a review of the movie since it got sooo many different reviews and critic so I thought I would like to share mine here on my blog and some of you were interested in seeing my review of the movie so here it is. First and foremost, I loved it, seriously, it was fucking brilliant. I have been waiting 3 years, YES, 3 BLOODY LONG YEARS OF MY LIFE for this movie since they've always kept postponing it. ugh. I was not disappointed, I thought I was going to be because of all the crappy reviews but as I mentioned, I have waited long enough so I am going to see it and judge for myself and it was beyond my expectations. The thing is with these kind of movies that are this huge you have to go in with a chill mindset, with BVS I suggest you to take it a little bit for what it is, just go with it, don't compare it with anything else, don't have any expectations and just don't anything , just go to your closest IMAX , watch it in 3D (seriously you guys and gurls, dooo it!) and you will have an overall amazing movie experience. I saw the movie 26th of mars, which was 3 days after the premiere I think, can't recall so as you've noticed by now it has passed 3 weeks since I said I was going to make this so sorry for the late review, but better late than never, right?? <3 (heheh... oops)


Ok, lets break this in pieces, lets start of with the characters I guess.



Batman / Ben Affleck - OMG I was so impressed by his performance, I thought he did a great take on playing Batman. I am not gonna lie, at first when I heard that he was going to play Batman I had a hard time accepting it but with time I warmed up to the idea and then I was like ok lets see what he can do, do not judge until you see the movie and when I did I was very happy and pleased to say at least. I loved Ben's take on Batman, it is dark, a bit twisted and righteous, especially playing an older version of Batman that is all to be expected since being many many years as Batman, you would expect him to be a lot rougher around the edges than what we are usually used to seeing in Batman. I loved his work and I cannot wait to see more, especially now that Ben Affleck is going to direct, write and make the new Batman movies and even star in it as the bat, I seriously cannot wait to see that.



Superman / Henry Cavill - I don't understand the hate Superman gets... I mean he is just like in Man Of Steel but a bit more pissed lol. Honestly, could you blame him for being it??! I would be a bit pissed too if everything good I tried to do , especially for the sake of others and me being as selfless as possible when I do not actually owe the world a damn thing but still to it for the good of my heart and it being pissed on and ruined all the time by someone else, wouldn't you be a liiiittle bit moody? Everyone is either using him or hating him and to see Superman with all these emotions is something not new, just read a comic book and you will understand. He isn't suppose to be perfect, he is trying to please everyone though that is one thing for sure and you can clearly see that in the movie but then you see his inner conflicts and emotions come to life which makes the character even more real. I think Henry did an outstanding job at proving that but many people do not see it. They have a very clear picture of Superman being always happy and cheerio which sure, he is most of the time, but still , he has emotions and thoughts as well and I love how they displayed that and that just made Superman even more believable in my eyes. If he existed I can totally see him like this. Also, despite all of the negativity I love how selfless and yet hopeful he is towards mankind and trying to make everyone happy, he is just a cute cinnamon roll that needs to be put in a blanket and be protected from this cruel world, we don't deserve him >:'( (lol, getting a bit carried away, moving along..) 




Lex Luthor / Jesse Eisenberg - Well... This was different. I like that though. Here I do understand why some fans would complain since Lex Luthor was not really what he usually is in comics, like at all , but I liked it. He was weird, psychotic, nervous wreck with a lot of power, oh oh, what could possibly go wrong? (hehehe..) I loved Jesse's take on Luthor, it was new and fresh and he was funny as hell but also very scary in many senses. His obsession with Superman however does come through on the screen and Lex has always been obsessed and even jealous on Superman and his power and all the attention he gets because of it etc. I think Jesse displayed that trait with the character Luthor perfectly. I loved his performance and I look forward to seeing more of it.



Lois Lane / Amy Adams - ..... Honestly what can I say? She bothers the crap out of me sometimes and how she always is there at the wrong time and place, it pisses me off to no end lol. For being such a smart woman as herself her curiosity is ignorant and annoying. Even though she knows there will be danger and she is a weakness of Superman she just marches right in there, so not only does Superman has to focus on slaying the enemy but now he has to worry for her safety as well... UGHHH, WHY U DO DIS LOIZZ?? WHY?  I am not hating on the actor at all, just sometimes on the character Lois, but she has more or less always been like that even in the comics and animated movies sooo... Idk what so say except for this. Kudos to Amy for keeping the character as real as possible though, just that proves what an amazing performance she makes and I am proud of her, she even crawled into my skin at times and just right there is good acting.




Wonder Woman / Gal Gadot - She is badass. Still not 100 % convinced since WW is someone I have high expectations for and even though she had 1 cool scene and the rest of the ones looking pretty ... hmm, not convinced, I am sorry but 1 cool fighting scene doesn't make the character super wow , lets get super real here. Also, I know a lot of the fandom likes her because she looks beautiful (no doubt, Gal really is) but just because someone is pretty and has 1 cool fighting scene you cannot really say a character is super cool and awesome because of that and praise it to the skies. I am on defense about Wonder Woman, was it even before the movie for a long time and even now afterwards. I am not hating on her but not loving her either, my thoughts on her are just "alright cool". I am looking forward though to seeing the solo movie of Wonder Woman and fingers crossed my views on her as a character gets kicked up and probably by then I can form a better view and opinion about her but until then it is alright.


Now, for the movie itself  -


I loved the intro, reminded me so much Watchmen, the entire look and editing of it but also it gave a certain mood to the movie, it was super cool. The graphics were nice and the sound / music was on point and really adding up to the feels when you watch the movie. The editing could have been done a bit better, I understand why many people complained of  it being choppy and all over the place because it jumps a little too fast from one scene to another and some scenes which is not really related to the actual movie itself makes it even more confusing for some. I understood it because we get to see glimpses of a parallel universe  and what might be happening in the future by batman's visions and also this movie shows a lot of sneak peaks for the upcoming movies like Justice League , Aqua Man, Wonder Woman and Flash soo... They crammed in all of this in one movie, I still think it was good if not even better because of it since I am SUCH a nerd sometimes lol but for someone who isn't exactly following the batman universe and comics etc it can be a bit difficult... One thing I don't get though is people who complain of no action in it?? what, are you blind ?? It is a TON of action like all the time. Also those who said "the movie is too dark" well no shit, they are not suppose to be happy and cheerio, this is fucking DC we talking about, that's what they've been all about all the time. The entire movie has a certain dark undertone but that is honestly to be expected. The movie represents itself realistically, if this was real life it would look like this. If you have seen Watchmen it has the same vibes, in real life superheros, if they existed they would have flaws but that just makes them even more believable and that makes me love the movie even more.
The movie isn't what we all expected, it is not much of fighting going on between Batman and Superman, how they get in to the conflict however that is interesting, basically they both did something not so great (aka fucked up) and they went after each other. The fighting between them do not really dominate the movie as we thought it would, hence the title but also the title says "dawn of justice" and I must say it is more of that than Batman vs Superman. So keep that in mind.

I think Zac Snyder did am amazing job with the movie and the actors as well, major kudos to them for giving me such an amazing movie experience. Seriously, to me, it was the best movie experience I had in my entire life, I never wanted it to end, what a crazy ride it was. Please stop hating on Zac Snyder, even seen a petition going on (like, seriously..??) for him getting the boot and I feel like you know fucking what, we do not deserve Zac Snyder then if y'all gonna be pissy, of all the flavors you choose to be salty, smh... It is one thing to not like the movie but trying to even get the director off the movie and getting him fired by starting a name collection?? Like how low can someone stoop? If you have signed it, may you burn in hell forever. I love Zac and I praise him and I seriously cannot wait to see more of his brilliant work. Probably the ones who hates it so much are people who have never read a comic book in their entire lifetime or even seen the animated movies (and are a major marvel fanboys probably) lol.


source for the pictures: Google image search and Tumblr. 

Overall, I give this movie a 5/5 stars since I loved it so much, give it a  go  and watch it ! <3 


Wednesday, March 2, 2016

OVER 100 000 HITS ON MY BLOG, THANK YOU.


Hi sweethearts!! <3 

Oh my god how I have missed you!! How are you all? No, seriously I wanna know, drop a comment and tell me lol. I am soo sorry for being so off here. It is so much that has been happening lately in my life or these past 2-3 months , it has been a hell of a ride so to speak. Also, I have noticed that my blog has reached over 100 000 viewers, that means over 100 000 actual people have been on my blog, that is seriously soo insane I can't even believe it myself. I remember I started to blog at the beginning of 2010 and now it is 2016, six years later,  and still my blog keeps on running and a lot of you out there are STILL with me even today, despite me not being as active as I've been before back in the days but still you keep on checking in on me / my life and I cannot tell you how special that makes me feel. You are all very special to me, yes, you there, my beautiful reader on the other side of the screen that is reading this, whoever you are. Thank you, for your support and belief in me , it does not go unnoticed, I promise. <3 

Well since I have a shitloads of stuff to tell you all babes whats up lets just get started :

December - 

Ok, remember when I said that I wasn't planning to do something during Christmas? Well, that was true but I've had a very pleasant surprise. I got woken up by my bestie Sandra, she was like Santa Claus, came in to my room while I was sleeping and brought me gifts and then we went and had food (her treat lol). I was so moved by it, seriously did not expect that at all and she just showered me with gifts. So my Christmas was great tbh. The day after she and Niklas came by around the evening and that was another pleasant surprise, they just dropped by and said hello and we hanged out over at my place for a bit, we just talked and catched up on things here in life so it was nice. A week after that I went to Simon and celebrated New Years there and it was honestly so chill. It was a calm evening, we had a lot of fun and I was with some amazing people, things couldn't be better. So December was a good month for me. :) 


During Christmas

Me without any makeup and my natural hair  when it behaves lol

Most awkward picture ever LOL but I promise it was a lot of fun, love these people. <3 <3 


January -

At the beginning of January I had my BFF Natta over for an entire week. We had so much fun together and it was so nice since I hadn't seen her for ages and I felt it was very much needed week for the both of us. It consisted lots of junk food and watching movies. We watched through all of the star wars movies, tbh with you guys, I am a huge nerd (which you should know by now) but I was never a fan of Star Wars for some reason. Every time I tried to watch the movies I got so bored and turned them off and I honestly couldn't understand the hype around them. That being said, it changed, like instantly. Both me and her haven't seen the movies, not thoroughly at least before but now, we were determined to watch all of them ones and for all. Took a couple of days but we managed. The biggest reason to why we decided to watch them was because of the new Star Wars movie and we felt like this is honestly a huge deal for our generation when it comes to movies and it is something you should see in the movie theater so that is why we decided to watch them all. I can officially say that I am a huge Star Wars fan now, the movies are truly amazing and I am so happy to finally be a part of that fandom. They are brilliant and I am redeemed lol. Also during January I met Kimberly and I finally got my hair fixed, I canceled out all the yellow tones, tried Olaplex as well and got myself a hair cut, so my hair feels awesome again. Afterwards me and Kimberly went to dinner and then grabbed a coffee and just catch up on all of the things that has been going on in our lives and it was lovely to finally sit down and talk to her because guuurl I have truly missed her. We don't see each other so often but when we do it is like nothing has changed and it is always exciting AF when I see her. <3 


These were taken from the night wen we went to watch Star Wars : The Force Awakens :)



My hair before and after the treatments


February - 

OK you guys, this month has not been good on me, at all. It started subtly to build up during the 2 months before and this month it all went to shit basically. A certain someone drowned me and mom in it's debts and that person took our money so we couldn't pay the rent, it was a pure shitloads of crap at the beginning of the month there to get in the payment. It was so bad that I had to call my uncle and ask him if we could borrow money for the rent since I didn't have any because of a certain someone had stolen money from me and my mum and therefore we couldn't get in the payment. That did get solved though and it wasn't a problem but still though, THAT STRESS , it was terrible and just awful. I was moody and pissed all the time. I also had to put out an ad around the 20 th February because our roommate that we've had was moving at the end of  the month and we needed a new one ASAP since we had a guy that wanted to move in but decided to back off the last second so yeah... That was fun (if you can call hell being a fun place). 4 days later we got a new roommate, she seems very nice and I like her, also she isn't exactly a stranger since her daughter knows my big sister and they basically brought up together so that was cool. The 2 awesome thing from February though was that I met an old friend of mine, we went to high school together and I haven't seen her since graduation. The Kat Von D's collection launched here in Sweden around 18th and we wanted stuff from her collection so we went together and had a awesome shopping trip. It was seriously the most awesome thing during this month among the madness, I've got to press the pause button for a while and it was nice. During February a friend of mine was having a birthday party so I went there and said hello. I was staying at Simon's place for that weekend and they live nearby so I thought why not? Besides meeting some new faces would just do good for me and Sandra was there as well so it was all good. Oh also my brother moved out recently, like by the end of this month so he doesn't live here anymore and now I have my own room back, yay! (Let's see how long that will last though)


During the birthday party

Before the birthday party at Simon's place 



Present time -

Still in aftershock from all the madness that has been going on from the past month but I managed. I can finally focus on myself and my own shit now instead of cleaning up others mess all the time. I don't take shit anymore from anyone, enough of that. I had my fair share of that and it sure did leave a bad taste in my mouth, a taste that I cannot forget for a while at least. Just as a reminder I guess. I have some plans and now I can finally set them in action. Overall I feel OK, it would be a lie if I said I was completely fine but it wouldn't quite be the truth if I said everything is bad. It WAS bad for a while there and I saw no light but now I am starting to see it. Hopefully something good will come along the way soon.

HERE IS ONE BIG CRAZY BITCH ASS SMILE FOR Y'ALL, LOL. This describes my mind at all times *crying out of laughter* 



WOW, that must be the biggest update I have ever done here on my blog, if you are still reading this imagine me giving you a blanket and cookies lmao. I love you all and again, thank you so much for all of your support and until next time, take care my lovely ones. <3